December 19, 2009

The Corporate War


It has always been a fist fight between managers and engineers. Prolonged denial of projects by management has become the tradition in corporate world. $$ decides whether prioritizing or dismissal of it. In spite of having folks who have inhabited years in my position put me in the hot spot to drag it to completion. All that was on my mind when I entered into the dimmed conference hall with the big heads seated, was not whether I can or cannot, but it was how and when. Optimistically I started off, with a good note and I found the response very approachable. Now it makes me wonder what made them approve. Is it a fresh face to the flock, a female or is it my individual approach. Well at this point just felt like I deserved a pat for myself .

October 26, 2009

Hate to say this but " Good bye to all and will miss all of you !!!"

With a Blink of my eye,
I stand here empty and hollow,
Hearing the echoes of mirth,
With different faces from past three years

Merciless time truly is a master
Turns my present to past
Cascaded emotions spread the warmth
Of my tear of farewell on my skin.

Good bye Friends, Good bye Syracuse
May the future awaits and destiny bind us again

October 20, 2009

Plans for my 1 week notice @ Work

1. Blog

2. Tweet sec by sec

3. Browse through high heel confidential ( to catch up on Indi fashion)

4. Pick my bubble where my boss cant spot me ( that should be laks cube )

5. Long lunches and breaks

6. Clean up my office for the next lucky #%@%


And last but not the least hugs and muah muah
A Final goodbye to the East
And a Big Yello to the West!! :

October 13, 2009

One liners about my friends

I dint wana tag my friends to the common traits fwded around and hence I created my own below
Anu - Pervasive Tyro
Divi – Blithe and carefree spirit
B- A mellow faced virile
Laks – Salient Lioness
Prassana – Dormant Influencer
Kiran – Candid debater
Yuvi - Ardent admirer
Anoop – Convincing arbitrator
Santa – Poignant scholar
Archu – Unprejudiced adviser

October 12, 2009

Last road trip along East Coast

Unsullied fall wind, meandering roads, roasted and butter dipped leaves camouflaging among the green mountains is a portrait that will never fade away from my memory. It is fascinating how nature is guileless and expressive through seasonal changes which decipher my ambiguity on creation. In retrospect, my thoughts vacillates back and forth through time with incessant and myriad of road trips that I have taken on this same route for the past 5 years. With a huge sigh this trip adds an end note to it. The faint silence I experienced during this trip was filled with mixed emotions, the love I had for the east and the animosity to let go few acquaintances. But as always, good times are remembered and hopefully welcome the better ones in future.

Thank u FG’s for making this trip special

October 1, 2009

Life lingers on a thin rope

News of departure leaves a heavy heart and especially the ones leaving from this world is quite saddening. So unfair that life’s intransigence to live a minute longer is destined by this figurative dressed in Black Robe. Metaphorically we are mere paramours longing to fulfill all our furtive desires before we are expelled from the stage. While reading William Shakespeare‘s “All worlds is a stage” in my 8th grade which describes entrances and exits of players, I dint realize there are few who have short roles to play , the few who never get to experience their second childhood as in the poem. RIP to all those who left us early with loaded memoirs.

September 3, 2009

Misinterpreted relationships

I question myself why few relationships enter our lives, entwine and yet fade away without a trace. It merely leaves behind the scars of those fondled memories, a moment of pensive and mysterious dearth of where it all started and a sudden trail to its end. It’s different when standing on the brim of a relationship where things narrow down to either we take it or abandon it. The tough part begins when investing years of acknowledged dependence that aggravation and intolerance takes over. Most times I am inclined to blame myself with the brooch of being naïve to elucidate further or may be the simple things that I ignore to rant becomes the cause for this disintegration. To put an end to my reasoning on this blog, complication and misinterpretation are separated by a thin line, and resolving the first part is tumultuous but the latter is never credulous.

August 31, 2009

Longest weekend ever

Though it’s quintessential of me walking into my cube on a Monday morning with droopy eyes and reluctant morning wishes to everyone. This weekend has taken it to a next level where I felt I was sedated. Yes this has been my longest weekend with deprived dosage of my beauty sleep. Farewell dinners, gets togethers, bday parties and sleepless nights of debating on rational conversations, truce and confessions. Guess I am now an official member of trust at the 309’s.

For every new line I draw
My prudence is challenged
For every new line I cross
My prejudice is questioned
For all the lines I have drawn
My trust is ensured.

August 29, 2009

Goodbyes and farewells

I realized bidding farewell is the most convoluted feeling, not only with loved ones but even with the ones known for a short term. Today is one such day where I witnessed the gang of 8…with loaded memories, heart filled gifts and forlorn sighs let go of their beloved one. It deemed to me that good bye is the only word that is tagged with multitude of emotions. Well all goodbyes need not be the end but a beginning to a limpid and lasting relationship.

August 2, 2009

Recurring Dream


As I hear the final note of my lullaby (the last song from hootie and the blowfish from my IPOD) my world darkens for the day. I felt that I was plummeting into the depths of a bottomless ravine. Gravity’s pull into a cumulus was strong enough to make my heart skip a beat. I suddenly fall a prey to a sudden fabled luridness, geminate and haloed, gleaming my sight, accompanied by a far flung echoing of angelic odes. As I approached the light, the tunes were more like a phone ringtone turning into loud screeching noise closer to my ears. I jumped out of my bed and then realized that it was my early morn alarm. Sometimes it’s fascinating how dreams can make your nights shorter.

July 14, 2009

The Balance


A Sincere Covenant
Between the heart and the mind
Is sometimes blinded by the disparity of the soul
Savage thoughts misleads the mind
Sore collectives scars the heart
Injustice to both quarantines the soul
To Restore a Balance between all three
IS Still a misconstrue.

June 15, 2009

The Knot

It has been a week since I had “THE KNOT” tied. Officially I take in a new last name of the person whom I will be sharing an eternal relationship. Connecting myself with the new ambience I am gradually plummeting into the role that I will maneuver. Having lived a self absorbed slipshod life for the past 4 years, time has now taken a toll for a turnover for me to be the meticulous grafter who implants and restores when needed. Watching the world scurry through time where life any minute is capricious, I believe my lucky stars will conspire to focus on my new expedition ahead.

March 14, 2009

Wish


Picture perfect it’s in my head

All the years gone by me and am lying on my bed

Wonder if my past could little longer last.

There were Times when I have no big choices to make,

And there were times when I never live for others sake

It’s true that I know that when reality strikes

I have to let go my past to welcome my new life.



Taxi’s honking outside my door

I walk out leaving traces of my memories all behind

Sadly loneliness is my shoulder to cry on.

Strange it is the feeling that turns into healing

Tears that were rolling were to wash and start fresh

Yes it is true that I know life is full of surprises

I have to let go of my past cause its my own ride


Wish I had to never grow up

Wish things turn back and sometimes never show up

But all comes to an end and all I want to say is that

I wish for the better