A.Jay In Wonderland

Is it peculiar that I seriously get a little poignant before I stride into the Cosmetic Section @ Macys. The rapture. The anticipation. The petite bag that I dropped $75 on. It is like a candy store for grown folks. Grown folks with lip gloss and make up obsessions. The estrogen level is sky-scraping. Guys tend to give it a wide berth. A few confident gentlemen venture in, hold up random testers, and look for consent in the eyes of their ladies.

It’s not a place for kids, really. If you’re coming in to make a quick grab, sure, but if you are there to peruse, make other arrangements. I have rarely been so appalled as I was at the sight of a small boy sitting in the aisle between the Chanel and E. Arden displays. Pulled from the shelves and piled around him were boxes of blush. He was opening them and pushing them about. Chanel blush, specifically their powder blush in a shade named Ephemere, is iconic. It’s also about $40 dollars a pop. This under supervised youngster was corrupting a few hundred dollars worth of stock but was in his quest of giving a helping hand to his mom who was on the other side of the counter giving a coquettish glance over perfumes.

Anyways getting back to what I got from my wonderland. Chanel's Levres Scintillates Glossimer and Aqualumiere Lipstick and Passion from Arden collections
I think my cosmetics are leading a far more steamy life than I am .

Shallow minds

I had a conversation yesterday with a quintessential callow person and it bowled over me that some people never change over an epoch of time or let me put it this way, they never attempt to amend ever in their lives. I contemplated that age is one of the factor that would pilot to an individual’s transformation but I guess it doesn’t ensue with few. They love living their past over and over again self obsessing, self defending and undermining other’s demeanor physically and psychologically. It is beyond a shadow of doubt that they are obscure about their present and swank about their prospects. At times it makes me feel like probing their wiles, and prejudice rationalizations, on second thoughts I am not the one who squabble’s for the sake of doing it and trying to reform the world. Initially I thought I should be defiant to her gibberish ridicule. Finally I couldn’t take anymore crap that i walked off deciding to stay impervious to all their futileness and evade their acquaintance.

Captivating libretto from 1 of Mel C's Song

Night and day.
Black beach sand to red clay.
From sidewalks to highways.
See it'll never be the same again.
What I'm sayin'My mind frame never changed 'til you came rearranged.
But sometimes it seems completely forbidden.
To discover those feelings that we kept so well hidden.

Where there's no competition.
And you render my condition.
Though improbable it's not impossible.
For a love that could be unstoppable.
But wait.

A fine line's between fate and destiny.
Do you believe in the things that were just meant to be?
When you tell me the stories of your quest for me.
Picturesque is the picture you paint effortlessly.

And as our energies mix and begin to multiply.
Everyday situations, they start to simplify.
So things will never be the same between you and I.
We intertwined our life forces and now we're unified.

Words of inspiration

Do you have words that inspire you? Words that demarcate what you want to be or do? Words that elevate you up and help you be the person you want to be?

I have a few...among them "Dream", "Love", "Belief"

Dream, because dreaming can lead to aspirations and realities that I otherwise wouldn't allow myself. For too long, I stopped dreaming of what I could do with my life.

Love, because I believe love hauls with us through the darkest of times and makes the best of times even better. Without Love the world would be even daunting than it can be now.

Belief, because I have to hark back myself to believe in what I can do. I don't easily believe in my own abilities occasionally, and it helps me remember that I am worth believing in.

Your turn. Post in words that that instigate you.

Five Elements of Life

While I was watching "The Avatar" couple of days ago, it got me thinking about the roles that we play in each other’s lives. I made an allusion to myself that I need my kid sis like I need air. “Who are your earth and water?” Good question. Let’s take inventory, shall we?

Air - Dolls, obviously. I can’t breathe without her. I would die without her. And yet I think I take her for granted sometimes.

Earth - Dad. The firm foundation on which I stand. The one who holds me up and keeps me from sinking.

Wind - Mom. She keeps me up and flying, takes me where I need to go, and keeps me floating when I can no longer soar.

Water - NiGil ,he keeps me honest and young, keeps me guessing. He reminds me that I’m not invincible, and makes me feel small (in a good, grounding way)

Fire - Dee sparks my imaginations, comforts me, and I shine in his light. He helps me grow and makes me smile every day. He dries up the rain and warms me.

Trite? Maybe. Corny? Yeah. But this is how I see these people in my life. I need them all to survive. If I lost any of them, I would be an incomplete and inoperable person. I wish that I could find words adequate to express to these people how they have impacted my life and what I would give up for them if I had to. There is nothing I wouldn’t do for any of them, and I’m the luckiest person alive to have them all in my life.

No Groceries When Hunger Strikes!

I try to live by this rule. Today, I broke it. I forgot to eat breakfast and didn't realize it until I was at the store. Then, suddenly, everything bad for me looked oh so good. Don't ask me what I bought. I am too ashamed. *sigh*Now I have to go find places to hide the evidence. lol.

Long Day !

Joy. Enthusiasm. Optimism. Apathy. Fury. Hurt. Denial. Aggression. Satisfaction. Empathy. Heartache. Desire. Irritation. Frustration. Justification. Annoyance. Pain. Longing. Temptation.
It’s been a long day.