January 17, 2008

Thoughts on Amendments

Do you know what its like to go to bed knowing that the next time you wake up, thats going to be the day your entire life changes? Often, we cant forsee the events that alter the paths of our destinies. But when you can, its a surreal feeling, like the feeling you get the night before your college graduation or your best friend's wedding. Its the feeling that when you wake up tomorrow, its going to be a great day, but your life will never be the same after it. Its the feeling that, truthfully for once, tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life. Suddenly, the routine seems trite. The show on TV becomes so much less interesting than it was yesterday. Your dinner becomes bland and your conscience becomes deafeningly silent, blatant only in its stillness. There is a clarity that must resonate as well with the inmate on death row as he is served his final meal, or the guy who has given forty years to a company as he cleans out his desk on the day he retires, or more cheerfully, the mother who has just given birth, holding her baby for the first time. Clarity that tells you, “Your work here is done. The rest is up to life.” I believe that clarity is what you see when the bell jar is lifted, and the world invites you back with open arms. There are lessons to be learned in the bell jar. You just have to know how to not suffocate inside it.
“Sometimes when everything is going wrong, one thing goes so right that you would do it all over again.”
Well. I dont know about all of it. But Im breathing.

1 comment:

Shalini/Pop Shalini/Shalini Singh said...

I can see that you are a very deep and intense person.nice writing!
cheers