January 17, 2008

Thoughts on Amendments

Do you know what its like to go to bed knowing that the next time you wake up, thats going to be the day your entire life changes? Often, we cant forsee the events that alter the paths of our destinies. But when you can, its a surreal feeling, like the feeling you get the night before your college graduation or your best friend's wedding. Its the feeling that when you wake up tomorrow, its going to be a great day, but your life will never be the same after it. Its the feeling that, truthfully for once, tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life. Suddenly, the routine seems trite. The show on TV becomes so much less interesting than it was yesterday. Your dinner becomes bland and your conscience becomes deafeningly silent, blatant only in its stillness. There is a clarity that must resonate as well with the inmate on death row as he is served his final meal, or the guy who has given forty years to a company as he cleans out his desk on the day he retires, or more cheerfully, the mother who has just given birth, holding her baby for the first time. Clarity that tells you, “Your work here is done. The rest is up to life.” I believe that clarity is what you see when the bell jar is lifted, and the world invites you back with open arms. There are lessons to be learned in the bell jar. You just have to know how to not suffocate inside it.
“Sometimes when everything is going wrong, one thing goes so right that you would do it all over again.”
Well. I dont know about all of it. But Im breathing.

3 Little words!

3 Little Words…3 word answers: Not as easy as you might think…
1. Where is your cell phone?
In my purse
2. Boyfriend/girlfriend?
Don’t have one
3. Your hair?
Black and wavy
4. Your mother?
I love her
5. Your father?:
I love him
6. Your favorite item?:
My cat Tinkerbell
7. Your dream last night?:
Strange but true
8. Your favorite beer?
don’t like beer
9. Your dream car?
Does it run?
10. The room you are in?
My office room
12. Your fear?:
Never having tried
13. What do you want to be in 10 years?:
Happy will do
14. Who did you hang out with last night?:
My Roomie prasanna
15. What your not?:
A ditzy supermodel
16. Muffins?:
Banana nut, please
17: One of your wish list items?:
Someone to love
18: what time is it?:
Three thirty-seven
19. The last thing you did?
Put away books
20. What are you wearing?:
Just a smile
22. Your favorite book?:
Pride and Prejudice
23. The last thing you ate?:
Chicken and Rice.
24. Your life?:
It’s getting better
25. Your mood?
Tired but anxious
26. Your friends?
Love them all
27. What are you thinking about right now?
Life’s best times
28. Your car:
It has character
29. What are you doing at the moment?:
Avoiding doing housework
30. Your summer?
It was eventful
31. Your relationship status?
Hard to tell