January 29, 2008
Five Elements of Life
January 28, 2008
No Groceries When Hunger Strikes!
January 22, 2008
Long Day !
January 18, 2008
Tinkerbell
He trots excitedly behind me when he sees me heading for the computer. I've never quite figured out why he loves to be near the computer, but I think it's something he has learned from my Dad. He sprawls beside my chair, chirping at me periodically to remind me that he's there. I leaned down to pet his soft fur. Sometimes, he takes this attention willingly. In fact, sometimes he stands up to follow my hand as I remove it to type again.
I will often search him out, just to steal some cuddles from him. These stolen moments are sometimes greeted with enthusiasm and other times with disgruntlement. Guess it depends on how deeply he is asleep when I bug him.
When evening rolls around, he comes out to greet my sister. I'm persona non gratis then. He likes to make her think he cares only for her. He commandeers his computer desk, sprawled beside his keyboard and accepting her loving scratches on his head. If she takes the time to type, he demands his attention by laying his head on her hand making it difficult to type and impossible to manipulate the mouse. All attention at that time must be on him.
If dinner smells good to him, he may hover near the table or in the kitchen, hoping for handouts, but this is rare. He isn't a slave to food, unless it happens to be luncheon meat. He'll do just about anything to get that. .
We once more find Tinkerbell laying in the way, tripping us as we walk. If we sit on the couch to chat, we find ourselves objects of scrutiny. He will saunter his way towards the couch, as if to ask for attention, but then he flops by my feet and sprawls on his back and watches me, upside down. If I lean to pet he, he will immediately claw at me, howling his objections. I always tell him not to lay belly up in front of me if he doesn't want me to give him a belly rub. He never listens.
He'll continue to follow us around for the rest of the evening. He never seems to want us to pet him then, but he trails in our wake. When we finally make our way to the bedroom for sleep, he is in the bed ahead of us, waiting for us. He insist on being snuggled then, but he's very particular about it. Only one of us may pet him at a time. Some days he wants Doll's love, other days mine. He's a fickle feline. Before long, he'll settle in for the night, once more curled up beside me. He'll usually start the night towards my feet and at some point in the middle he moves to the pillow by my head.
January 17, 2008
Thoughts on Amendments
“Sometimes when everything is going wrong, one thing goes so right that you would do it all over again.”
Well. I dont know about all of it. But Im breathing.
3 Little words!
1. Where is your cell phone?
In my purse
2. Boyfriend/girlfriend?
Don’t have one
3. Your hair?
Black and wavy
4. Your mother?
I love her
5. Your father?:
I love him
6. Your favorite item?:
My cat Tinkerbell
7. Your dream last night?:
Strange but true
8. Your favorite beer?
don’t like beer
9. Your dream car?
Does it run?
10. The room you are in?
My office room
12. Your fear?:
Never having tried
13. What do you want to be in 10 years?:
Happy will do
14. Who did you hang out with last night?:
My Roomie prasanna
15. What your not?:
A ditzy supermodel
16. Muffins?:
Banana nut, please
17: One of your wish list items?:
Someone to love
18: what time is it?:
Three thirty-seven
19. The last thing you did?
Put away books
20. What are you wearing?:
Just a smile
22. Your favorite book?:
Pride and Prejudice
23. The last thing you ate?:
Chicken and Rice.
24. Your life?:
It’s getting better
25. Your mood?
Tired but anxious
26. Your friends?
Love them all
27. What are you thinking about right now?
Life’s best times
28. Your car:
It has character
29. What are you doing at the moment?:
Avoiding doing housework
30. Your summer?
It was eventful
31. Your relationship status?
Hard to tell
January 16, 2008
Confusing times ! looking back already
I find myself laden with vulnerability in recent days. I woke up one day and couldn’t get a certain memory out of my head. And it kept wearing on me, slipping into my thoughts at the worst times, stealing some of the mental resources that I needed to be devoting to the task at hand to use to force the images out. And eventually, it wore me down enough. Just enough.
Behind the clouds is the sun still shining.
January 15, 2008
Do U !! What if?!?
What if you're so used to fitting in with the first that the second never takes notice of you?
January 13, 2008
Daughters By John Mayer !
she puts the color inside of my world
she's just like a maze
where all of the walls all continually change
I've done all i can
to stand on the steps with my heart in my hands
Now i started to think
maybe its got nothing to do with me.
so fathers be good to your daughters,
daughters will love like you do,
girls become lovers who turn into mothers
so mothers be good to your daughters too.
Oh
Oh you see that skin
its the same shes been standing in
since the day you two met
i bet i was on your mind
never ever any time
Oh yeah
so fathers be good to your daughters,
daughters will love like you do, yeah
girls become lovers who turn into mothers
so mothers be good to your daughters too.
boys you can break
find out how much they can take
boys will be strong and
boys soldier on
but boys would be gone
without warmth of a woman's good good heart
on behalf of every man
looking out for every girl
you are the god and the weight of her world
on behalf of every man
who's looking out for every girl
you are the god and you are the weight of her world
so fathers be good to your daughters,
daughters will love like you do,
girls become lovers who turn into mothers
so mothers be good to your daughters too
so mothers be good to your daughters too
so mothers be good to your daughters too
No pressure or anything on the parents in this song, eh? Still, it rings true to me. I still idolize my dad. I know he's not perfect, sure, but I still think he could get me the stars from the sky if I wanted them badly enough. Would he? Probably not. He'd probably tell me to do it myself! ;) But he's always been really good at urging me on to my goals which helped to get through the toughest moments of my life.
As I was listening to this song I submerged into deep thoughts of reminiscence.I'm not sure I have ever told him how much I appreciated him being my moral bastion. I'm sure my actions back then didn't show it. I'm pretty sure he doesn't read this blog. Still, I'm very thankful for my dad.
Thanks, Dad. I think you've given me a great example of love and of living.